Easier said than done

I always find myself saying I am going to do something and then I NEVER do it......ever. I findmyself starting out strong but after a couple days or weeks my desire dies down. Maybe it is fear that stops me. But I want to change, it will help me find myself but also make me stronger. There are so many things I want to do in life and by holding back I fear that I am missing out. But changing is easier said than done. And that is the hurdle I am yet to overcome. So today will be the beginning of a new life and yes changing will probably be the hardest thing I am yet to encounter...through God and with the help of a few close friends and family...I know I can to do it...and not mention MYSELF. Granted, changing will certainly not make my life perfect in any way and nor will the choices I make be perfect. But I am looking for perfection even though it doesn't exist in this world we call life. I hope to change my outlook on life as I endure this transformation. So enough rambling I am making a list...this list is more so for me than any of you who read this (if there are any of you haha) but for my friends who are avid readers of this blog =] you guys can help me reach these changes and remind me of the prize at the end

1. Love myself- This is a rather broad goal that embodies all the others. It includes gaining confidence, believing in myself, trying my hardest, making the right choices, having will power, knowing what is best for me, respecting my body, and embracing who I am. I will achieve this goal by working out and eating healthy regularly, learning to say no, pushing myself out of my comfort zone, doing well in school, giving people the respect they deserve, the list could go on forever.

2. Grow in my faith- Recently I have distanced myself from God and my faith. I miss him dearly and can't wait to go back. Not that he ever abadoned me, I just don't know how to let him back into my life. I will make this happen by attending Wednesday night youth, Sunday morning services, and daily prayer.

3. Treasure family and friends- With all the cancer and death I have witnessed in my own life and in others one would find how I treat my family apalling. I have been very selfish and rude towards my family and friends. But its time things change. I will pick up more responsibility, be less selfish, and be a better friend, daughter, and sister.