Lost amongst the rest

Do you ever find yourself so lost that you don't know how, when, or where to begin? I feel like I am living in a foreign world and on top of that lost in this unknown place; I search and search for somebody to give me directions back to familiarity and yes they do but each piece of advice is so different yet right....I am left with the decision of who to follow and will I really be happy in the end? And no this doesn't regard college...right now I am totally dismissing that thought. I don't understand life; friends, family, love, emotions, true happiness, reasoning behind things, people, my thoughts and just EVERYTHING, am I eve n normal anymore. And on top of all my confusion I have chosen to "vacation" from God during the time I need him the most. The scary thing is, I don't know how to return to him and just the thought of commtting to such power scares me shitless. Maybe this is all just part of the "finding yourself and establishing your own life stage"? boy oh boy am I confused....well I think you have ingested enough ranting to last your for an entire month...shall we move on to a more enlightening topic?

Thoughts on the Oscars?.....I am not going to lie.....I had no intentions of watching the Oscars until I attempted to tune into my weekly show, Desperate Housewives.....and to my surprise the Oscars were on :( Nonetheless I decided to watch them...just to see what all the hype was about. I don't remeber half of it because I was a little lost with all the adwards that the Oscars entailed. After watching it I will definitely have to see The Reading and Slumdog Millionaire! But I was elated that Kate Winslet won best female actress, I absolutely love her, she is stunning, and she was soooo deserving of that award. Plus her acceptance speech was pretty darn good. I was a little upset that Beyonce's lip-syncing was soooooooooooooo noticeable but Hugh Jackman's musical was fairly entertaining minus Zac and Vanessa...BLAH! There were tons of phenemonal dresses and I don't remember which one I liked best. I almost forgot...being the total Twilight fanatic that I am.....I was beyond excited that Robert Pattinson got to introduce romance of 08! And to make it even better they had Twilight clips! yipee! That definitely made my night! I have so much more to say but my night is looking a tad busy so...i guess I'll continue later!